Angel Wings

Dear Lila,

You've always had angel wings, wings of an angel.
And I've always loved to run my fingers over them.
They are bony and stick out, in an obvious way, but I did love them all the same.
I told you one day when you were sick that maybe one day, you would fly.
Fly high above the baby blue sky.
And I told you not to let that time come too soon when you would swap your bony wings for real ones.
I cried and cried and you comforted me, until the very end.
The last time I saw you in that furry white body you gave me feeble kisses.
I could see it in your eyes, you wanted me to save you, from the veterinary's office.
But I said to be good, and I kissed you then I turned my back and said good bye, see you tomorrow.
I will never forgive and never forget that stupid choice I made, of leaving you there, walking away my back to you.
And then this morning we got the call and I couldn't even stand. I fell to the ground and cried and cried about this horrible thing.
And then when I got you, your fur was so soft and your eyes still bright and merry. And then I found your angel wings on your back and began to cry some more. They weren't nearly as bony as they were the day before because now in heaven you needed them.
All that is left is a body in a box but I realized now there is so much more. It's good when you realize the reason you're crying is because of all the good times and good memories.
I love you so much and you'll always be my beautiful baby bunny. Or funny bunny, or honey bunny or Lila or sweetheart or something of that sort. And now I know that you know that I love you, I can smell you everywhere. I am not sure why but everywhere I go I can smell you, as if my nose was pressed against your soft warm fuzzy body.
I'll never forget the first bunny I had, a boy who's name was Lila, the mini rex rabbit who made 6 years of my life so amazingly great, will be with me forever, and ever and ever
And now he is in heaven with his real angel wings watching me up from the sky. And I hope he understands why I did what I did and how I love him so much.
And I'll never forget that bunny from Noah Arc's pet store and how he has changed my life. And made me who I am today. I am forever grateful.


Love your Mommy.